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Rest, rest, rest

Elliot is almost over his croup turned bronchitis from last week. It was obvious that he felt unwell when he took afternoon naps and had a loss of appetite. Overall, it was a busy week with doctor’s appointments, recovering, and taking various medications: antibiotics, steroids, over-the-counter pain reliever, and doing breathing treatments at home.

I took last week in stride and hoped that I wouldn’t get sick too. But last night I felt the first inklings of a cold: lightheaded, pounding head, achy body, and a yucky tasting cough. I consoled myself that at least Elliot was feeling better and Ellis hasn’t been throwing up. Ack! I got ahead of myself because Ellis felt queasy right after waking up and ran to the bathroom. Today was the first time she threw up without someone next to her.

The best scenario was resuming our regular activity schedule this week, but it’s having to be pushed back again. In the big scheme of things a few days will not break or put us behind since we can do make-up classes and still catch up to our lessons. But when I am tired, it makes those changes seem large and daunting. I wonder, where is my faith in all of this? God has brought me through challenges much bigger than this and I believe He can do it again.

Psalm 32:8

The Lord says, “I will guide you along the best pathway for your life.
    I will advise you and watch over you.

At-home breathing treatment with nebulizer. It’s helped so much with his coughing.

Today has been a rough day. I’ve been dealing with cold symptoms, fatigue, and extreme guilt that I couldn’t help Ellis this morning. Other nagging thoughts: I’m inconsistent with homeschooling lessons and our learning environment is too scattered. I wonder how our learning journey turned into this burdensome task. It used to be an exploration of budding interests and having fun learning together. But once I put so much pressure on myself, it’s begun to lose its spunk.

“I love a broad margin to my life.”

Henry David Thoreau

I need to give myself some margin and enjoy this time with my kids.

Rest. Must rest. Need down time to recover.

It’s a daily lesson in surrendering my fears and insecurities to God: let go and let God. Another lesson is setting my priorities in order.

Psalm 37:7

“Be still in the presence of the Lord, and wait patiently or Him to act.”

Philippians 4:6

“Don’t worry about anything; instead, pray about everything. Tell God what you need, and thank him for all he has done.”

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Writing and daydreaming have always been two of my favorite things to do. I've been an avid journal writer since junior high school. It was a way for me to survive the complex world of being a Korean-American female straddling two cultures. Journal writing continued through graduate school, but that luxury is now replaced with multitasking to raise and homeschool two young kids. As the self-proclaimed domestic C.E.O. of our home, personal reflection occurs mostly in my subconscious dreams, during solo grocery shopping runs, or when my husband Chris takes the kids to Costco for an afternoon trip.

14 thoughts on “Rest, rest, rest

  1. Rest, rest, rest…you all deserve it. Plus you can turn it into a teaching moment about how the body learns to recover from illnesses or how viruses work. Hope you all feel better soon!

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    1. What a brilliant idea!! Thank you for sharing that suggestion. It can be a teachable moment.
      We’re taking it slow and recovering. The state of our living room is another story. It amazes me how 2 little people can make the kind of mess they do.

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  2. You do so need the rest. Think of missed school work as a snow day. You catch up when things get back into rhythm. I am late getting to reading posts and have not written a post in several days myself due to snow and cold interrupting my desire. Sunday looks to be a normal winter day but tomorrow will be scary with -50 wind chill. Send me some California warmth. LOL May you all feel better very soon.

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    1. Great way to look at it! If kids went to regular school, it would be sick day. Crazy how I’m the teacher, principal, administrator, etc….trying to keep it all together.
      I was wondering why your posts were not showing up in my feeds. It wasn’t like you. I hope you feel better soon!! It’s awful to be sick and to put everything on hold till recovery. It’s like the body’s way of saying to slow down and take it easy.
      -50 wind chill?! I don’t even know what that is like. I wish I could send you some CA. sun. It’s too dry and warm here, although we’re set to get some rain this week. Please stay well and praying you have a swift recovery.
      Thank you for your sweet voice of encouragement and prayers!!!

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      1. That sounds great! It would be interesting too talk about your work experience with Korean people and if there is anything I could help you understand about Korean culture. 🙂 I don’t know anything about the Korean community in Alabama, so that would be insightful for me.

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  3. Hang in there. In no time all three of you will be out and about and learning on a daily basis. We miss you all at dance class and we hope to see you real soon!

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    1. Thanks Lucy!! It’s hard to take a break or days of rest when you have kids. They don’t understand that moms can get sick too except that mom gets very sleepy when she takes NyQuil. lol
      Miss you guys too!

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    1. Thanks bubba!! It’s been a rough couple of months for us, and it got worse for me after getting sick. We’ve been through worse and made it through well. So here we go again.. But life is good with you in it!!

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