Lately I’ve been unhappy with my writing voice and the lack of variety I use in my sentences. I have a tendency to judge my writing based on the first draft, and as every writer is aware, the first draft is just a starting point for better and polished writing. Instead of improving my writing muscles by writing, I judge it as bad and boring. Talk about self-sabotage.
So I’m trying to overcome this block by writing something everyday; I’ll try. It’s been difficult to sit calmly and have the mental space to think and write.
When kids were small and still in diapers, I thought I’d have less work to do when they are in elementary school. That was before we made the decision to homeschool. There’s still the same academic work and running the household tasks, but now that they’re older, more sensitive heart-work is involved: growing pains, learning coping mechanisms, building perseverance, discovering personal interests and gifts, cultivating kind and empathic hearts, building on successes, realizing failure is not the end of life, developing a personal relationship with Jesus, etc. It’s a tough job criteria and I miss the mark on a daily basis.
Oh my gosh, my mind reels when I think about all these things. I can’t do it all and still have time to write. But I’m glad to share the going-ons in my life with this blogging community. Appreciate you all and feel blessed to have this inner conversation with you.
This was supposed to be brief post yet here I went on and on about my schooling goals and a whole bunch of other stuff. Homeschooling challenges me to learn alongside my kids and admit that I know don’t have all the answers. When they ask questions, I begin to answer in general terms but it soon becomes difficult to articulate specifics: realization that I don’t know is painful and regret that I didn’t care to learn those things when young. It’s humbling to admit not knowing and the best response that makes all of us happy is, “That’s a great question. I’m learning with you guys too. Let’s look it up.” (we forget to look it up often unless it’s a pressing question).
Must keep faith alive that God who led us here will lead us through the homeschooling and other life journeys well!
Thanks for reading my ramblings…Have a great Friday and weekend!
Welcome to my blog! My name is Esther and I'm so happy you are here. I'm an avid nature photographer and a daydreaming thinker. My posts revolve around photos of nature's beauty, homeschooling adventures with my 2 kids, sporadic reflections on my child's heart condition, Bible reading reflections, gardening feats, and other mish mash things. Hopefully you'll leave encouraged, pensive, or smiling at the simple things of life. Thank you for stopping by and hope you'll find some interesting posts to read!