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Some more homeschooling rambles

Lately I’ve been unhappy with my writing voice and the lack of variety I use in my sentences. I have a tendency to judge my writing based on the first draft, and as every writer is aware, the first draft is just a starting point for better and polished writing. Instead of improving my writing muscles by writing, I judge it as bad and boring. Talk about self-sabotage.

So I’m trying to overcome this block by writing something everyday; I’ll try. It’s been difficult to sit calmly and have the mental space to think and write.

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When kids were small and still in diapers, I thought I’d have less work to do when they are in elementary school. That was before we made the decision to homeschool. There’s still the same academic work and running the household tasks, but now that they’re older, more sensitive heart-work is involved: growing pains, learning coping mechanisms, building perseverance, discovering personal interests and gifts, cultivating kind and empathic hearts, building on successes, realizing failure is not the end of life, developing a personal relationship with Jesus, etc. It’s a tough job criteria and I miss the mark on a daily basis.

Oh my gosh, my mind reels when I think about all these things. I can’t do it all and still have time to write. But I’m glad to share the going-ons in my life with this blogging community. Appreciate you all and feel blessed to have this inner conversation with you.

This was supposed to be brief post yet here I went on and on about my schooling goals and a whole bunch of other stuff. Homeschooling challenges me to learn alongside my kids and admit that I know don’t have all the answers. When they ask questions, I begin to answer in general terms but it soon becomes difficult to articulate specifics: realization that I don’t know is painful and regret that I didn’t care to learn those things when young. It’s humbling to admit not knowing and the best response that makes all of us happy is, “That’s a great question. I’m learning with you guys too. Let’s look it up.” (we forget to look it up often unless it’s a pressing question).

Must keep faith alive that God who led us here will lead us through the homeschooling and other life journeys well!

Thanks for reading my ramblings…Have a great Friday and weekend!

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Welcome to my blog! My name is Esther and I'm so happy you are here. I'm an avid nature photographer and a daydreaming thinker. My posts revolve around photos of nature's beauty, homeschooling adventures with my 2 kids, sporadic reflections on my child's heart condition, Bible reading reflections, gardening feats, and other mish mash things. Hopefully you'll leave encouraged, pensive, or smiling at the simple things of life. Thank you for stopping by and hope you'll find some interesting posts to read!

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  1. It’s not easy to homeschool, Esther! It’s okay when your kids ask you questions when you can’t give them specific answers right away. I think it’s okay to do a quick search on the internet and even read the answers to them. You can have a discussion about the answers right there.

    I really appreciate the parents doing homeschooling. I hope you’re in a homeschooling support group.


    1. Thank you Miriam for your encouragement and affirmation that homeschooling is a tough calling! I feel like I’m always “on” as teacher and I become my own worst critic.
      The process is interesting and gratifying but when my two students don’t cooperate or life emergencies pop up, it’s hard to get back into the swing of things. I guess that’s how life is.
      As for answering questions, I respond similarly to your suggestions. This is a way of teaching them how to research and discern information they find. These days I feel God is using this work to draw me closer to Him.
      Once again, thank you for your encouragement! Just knowing that someone understands helps a lot.
      Have a great weekend. πŸ™‚

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      1. It’s great that your kids learn how to do research along with you. As a teacher, I learned new things every day. I learned how the students learn and learned what to teach and how to teach. It helped me as a lifelong learner also.
        Have a wonderful weekend, Esther. πŸ™‚


  2. You have a big task with home schooling Esther. There are new things for you to learn as well – I’d be limited in the math department as math was not something I enjoyed. Mastering math was one thing, but my mind did not comprehend why I’d every need to know algebra or geometry – I thought it was a waste of time, but that’s me. I can remember when I was growing up, after dinner, I’d sit at one end of the kitchen table doing homework and my mom doing dishes, my father, a tool-and-diemaker, doing some complex math problem on a slide ruler on the other end of the table across from me. He’d spent an hour of so before he/my mom read the newspaper. He then bought a calculator, Texas Instruments I believe, so at the push of a button, he had the answer to the problem. There is something always evolving – never beat yourself up over it. You are evolving and learning too.


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