Had a virtual meeting with the eye doctor this morning. She says a lot of things can happen in a month and will check on the condition of the eye holes in 3 weeks. (*correction: yesterday I confused the tear as a hole. sorry for the confusion) Possible causes: head trauma (had one or two of these in the past 8 years), heavy lifting, genetics. Check to all 3.

I’m glad this issue came to the fore of my attention when it did. This’ll help me stay mindful to avoid high stress activity that’ll exacerbate it. However, I was miffed when told to calm down, think about something else, and go read a book. I realize she meant to be helpful but *deep sigh*, it sounds patronizing and downplays my concerns as senseless worries. I could feel my defensiveness kicking in to explain why my concerns are valid, but that’s unproductive to our conversation. Oh well…I’ve met a lot of doctors who speak this way: insensitive bedside manners. Not taking it personally.

As for my eyes, I’m reassured it’s not going to worsen dramatically; it’s in the observation phase. Hopefully the left hole will heal like the ones in the right side did. God’s design of the human body is spectacular with all its self-protective mechanisms, warning signals, brain’s ability to compensate for lost functions, and so much more.

“You made all the delicate, inner parts of my body
and knit me together in my mother’s womb.
Thank you for making me so wonderfully complex!
Your workmanship is marvelous – how well I know it.” (NLT) Psalm 139:13 – 14

I’m so grateful for everyone who encouraged, shared, and supported me in my anxiety! It’s helped me immensely and know that others have had positive outcomes in the past.

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Welcome to my blog! My name is Esther and I'm so happy you are here. I'm an avid nature photographer and a daydreaming thinker. My posts revolve around photos of nature's beauty, homeschooling adventures with my 2 kids, sporadic reflections on my child's heart condition, Bible reading reflections, gardening feats, and other mish mash things. Hopefully you'll leave encouraged, pensive, or smiling at the simple things of life. Thank you for stopping by and hope you'll find some interesting posts to read!