In two weeks the school year officially ends. This homeschool teacher (me) is emotionally stretched and haggardly tired. I usually start the day with high ambitions and my scribbled planner shows all the cool learning stuff we could do: gardening, nature walks, identifying flowers, new fish, cooking, outings. But playing that out in reality is slow motion in slow motion; add a medically fragile child who throws up at random into the equation and the day gets tense with overvigilance.
I’ll spare you the details, but my two kiddos have always been highly sensitive to emotions. They constantly ask existential questions, ponder spiritual issues, and are wary of new experiences which require constant reassurances, verbal processing of experiences, relating examples, etc. It’s spontaneous and difficult.
My little one chatters all day: I need extra ears. I am worn to a frazzle.
It’s understandable that feeling complex emotions are overwhelming and scary, especially for young kids. Knowing that, I’m trying my best to help them consider other’s perspective, discern thoughts as relevant or irrelevant, suggest replacing bad thoughts with helpful thoughts, articulate their thoughts and feelings, etc. I’m no expert and these are issues I’m working on too.
Hopefully my labor will eventually produce good fruits in our lives. It’s like building skills that they can draw upon in life as grown ups.
I’m trying not to lose my temper and tear down what we’ve so gingerly built together though it’s feeling rocky!
Dear other homeschooling teachers, mamas, and school teachers, hang in there! We’re doing special work although this time of year is when it feels like the days are long and arduous.
God help our tired and weary spirits!!
Welcome to my blog! My name is Esther and I'm so happy you are here. I'm an avid nature photographer and a daydreaming thinker. My posts revolve around photos of nature's beauty, homeschooling adventures with my 2 kids, sporadic reflections on my child's heart condition, Bible reading reflections, gardening feats, and other mish mash things. Hopefully you'll leave encouraged, pensive, or smiling at the simple things of life. Thank you for stopping by and hope you'll find some interesting posts to read!