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What a week…rambling post. Had a point, then got off track.

It seems like there isn’t enough hours in the day to finish what needs to be done. For me, it’s the fear that I’m not making good use of my time; I should be doing more but I’m not. It’s some arbitrary scale I use to evaluate my usefulness. Very self-defeating. But when I pause to appreciate nature, mull over beautifully written words, or see the usual in a fresh perspective, I feel inspired to tackle my own craft.

I hope you take the time to refresh yourselves with the works of art, in whichever form, around you. God has given each of us unique talents and gifts that are all special. Some may be more visible while some are less noticeable. Nonetheless, they can all be used to glorify God!

Creativity is not only for the arts but for living one’s life well. It’s hard to feel creative as a homeschooling mom, but when I feel daunted by the day’s task ahead of me, I ask God for wisdom, energy charge, and enthusiasm. The effect is so subtle but I feel God bringing order into our chaos. I wish it were like this all the time, and it has a lot to do with my heart state.

This week has been unusually tough with more to do at home, pain management for my ongoing knee issue that is acting similar to sciatica, and with kids testing my patience.

Happy place. Remembering how peaceful and convenient it was to wake up at the hotel and take a short walk to Monterey Bay Aquarium. This was our yearly outing (the aquarium offers a free day for homeschooling families and members), but kids have developed a deathly fear of the gigantic whale sculpture there. Gonna take a few years before we make a return visit.

I wonder what in the world I’m doing and if any of it serves a purpose. They argue over trivial matters, want me to see everything they’re doing, or ask what else is there to eat for the umpteenth time (both have different preferences). All I want to do is curl up on the couch facing the wall. For the sake of everyone’s happiness and my sanity, the best thing would be for me to take a long nap and stop obsessing over irrelevant things.

This blog post was supposed to be about using our creativity to glorify God, but in writing it, I felt the need to share my thoughts. Tomorrow will be a better day and Advil hopefully will alleviate this body pain. Never realized how physical pain mars everything I do. More empathy for people living with chronic pain.

Thank goodness tomorrow is Friday!