God is personal each time, though I forget almost each time

This morning I woke up to my cell phone ringing with a “Scam Likely” ID. Dismiss.

I rolled back into bed wondering how I would manage today, feed the kids, teach, etc. God, will I be a mess like I was yesterday? I had a bout of stomach spasm that feels like the effects of food poisoning that comes in a flash and diminishes in an hour or so. Whew, I had to call off everything and just lounge on the couch.

This sudden stomach issues happen every few months. It’s my body’s way of telling me to stop the restlessness, doing, and striving. Once I get close to checking off the list of things I needed to do this semester for the kids, my body reacts this way. I did not want a repeat of yesterday.

I started the day by cracking open my Bible and hoped God had something for me. Even though it’s a positive experience getting started is the hard part. I decided to read some Psalms and picked today’s date as the chapter to read, which I realized now is the 20th and not 21st. My goodness.

I kept reading and through Psalm 23, which is familiar to many. I’ve memorized this Psalm written by King David in my late 20s at a time when I had sporadic panic attacks in NYC subways. It felt like a death trap on rails. Because of this I preferred to walk than public transportation or when I had to go somewhere, I’d whisper this Psalm to myself and try to look normal as possible.

But today the 2nd verse stood out in blinking lights.

"He lets me rest in green meadows; he leads me beside peaceful streams. He renews my strength..." Psalm 23:2-3

God is very personal. I need just that, a renewing of strength that only God can provide. As though He wanted to make a point that my concerns are heard, I soon scrolled through my email and found that a friend had shared a Bible verse with me from her YouVersion Bible app.

It was a moment of simultaneous belief and nonbelief that here was the first verse of Psalm 23.

No trumpets sounded or the ground beneath rumbled, but God gently affirmed that He knows and hears me. It is okay to rest (whether mental, emotional, physical). Thanks J. for sharing part of Psalm 23 with me!! It was more than a coincidence.

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Strength is not something even the strongest have in unlimited abundance; it’s not humanly possible although my skewed perception tells me it is for some people. Some days you need rest to renew; also, I don’t need to have Hulk-like strength to feel productive and enough.

Thanks for reading my God-meeting-me-where-I-am story today! I hope everyone has a wonderful evening and you find some moments to rest and renew yourself.

10 thoughts on “God is personal each time, though I forget almost each time

  1. Like the experience of Elijah, God spoke to him not in the thunder but in a whisper. Psalm 23 gives us comfort and calms our souls. He doesn’t mind to keep reminding us. Thank you for sharing, Esther. Hope you’re feeling better.

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    • Agree! Elijah is a great example. Thanks for the connection. I’m feeling better now; it happens every now and then. Thankful that it’s not serious. Hope you are well too!
      And I just ordered your paperback book on Amazon. 🙂 Looking forward to it.

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      • There are several examples in the Bible are my good reminders and this is one of them. Sometimes when there’s a miracle, no matter how small it is, I think it’s God’s way to tell me he is still a God of miracles.
        Thank you so much for ordering the book. I’m glad to have received well responses! 🙂

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      • Yes, I agree that God gives many examples of God’s orchestrating events perfectly. He is a God of miracles and love (so much love that’s hard to fathom).
        You’re welcome. Love to support a blogger friend and writing ventures! Your last poetry book was wonderful with the pictures and organization of the poems into different life stages.

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      • Yes, Esther, and He doesn’t let us forget about that. I hope your children like the book. A teacher/blogger friend said the book is good for older elementary students also, not just the lower grades. Good to hear that.
        Have a nice weekend!

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    • Hi Arnold, you are right. God speaks in unusual ways and more than we think. Sometimes I wonder why He does because it seems there are bugger issues to deal with. But He’s an omnipotent God! Hope you have a great weekend and enjoy the spring weather.

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  2. ‘That I may know him,’ is his desire, and delight. He made us in his image, to be like him. It’s a deep comfort to know ‘it is God which works in you.’

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