When you think you’re doing good, that’s when you should be show down and be careful. Boy, was this true for me last night. I felt overlooked and taken for granted as I was getting back to the groove of homeschooling after a week, and still continuing, of Elliot’s sickness; we needed to catch up with some lessons and finish his writing assignment for his Wednesday class.
Well, the process was dramatically difficult. Both kids are extremely sensitive with each other and at odds over the tiniest detail, of why are you looking at me, do you have to make so much noise, that’s my chair. I try to be pleasant and laugh it off; however, it’s not how I feel inside. If you haven’t eaten regularly, lack sleep from days worth of waking up multiple times at night, and feel pressured with things we need to do but haven’t, it makes for a cross and annoyed mama. I felt invisible.
Caretaking and teaching in the home have no start and stop times. When I feel confident that I can do this, the enemy attacks sowing seeds of discontentment and feelings of inadequacy.
I don’t have it all together…it’s a daily process. Once Elliot’s coughing stops and he gets back to his normal healthy self, I could let down some of my apprehensions. Ellis has been a trooper and not caught his virus. It’s quality, not quantity that matters. Chris makes meals, picks up take out, and helps around the house. See, in that regards, it’s great. Our little family works in our own way. I need to see the positive side of this experience and stop freaking out.
Welcome to my blog! My name is Esther and I'm so happy you are here. I'm an avid nature photographer and a daydreaming thinker. My posts revolve around photos of nature's beauty, homeschooling adventures with my 2 kids, sporadic reflections on my child's heart condition, Bible reading reflections, gardening feats, and other mish mash things. Hopefully you'll leave encouraged, pensive, or smiling at the simple things of life. Thank you for stopping by and hope you'll find some interesting posts to read!