God is personal each time, though I forget almost each time

This morning I woke up to my cell phone ringing with a “Scam Likely” ID. Dismiss.

I rolled back into bed wondering how I would manage today, feed the kids, teach, etc. God, will I be a mess like I was yesterday? I had a bout of stomach spasm that feels like the effects of food poisoning that comes in a flash and diminishes in an hour or so. Whew, I had to call off everything and just lounge on the couch.

This sudden stomach issues happen every few months. It’s my body’s way of telling me to stop the restlessness, doing, and striving. Once I get close to checking off the list of things I needed to do this semester for the kids, my body reacts this way. I did not want a repeat of yesterday.

I started the day by cracking open my Bible and hoped God had something for me. Even though it’s a positive experience getting started is the hard part. I decided to read some Psalms and picked today’s date as the chapter to read, which I realized now is the 20th and not 21st. My goodness.

I kept reading and through Psalm 23, which is familiar to many. I’ve memorized this Psalm written by King David in my late 20s at a time when I had sporadic panic attacks in NYC subways. It felt like a death trap on rails. Because of this I preferred to walk than public transportation or when I had to go somewhere, I’d whisper this Psalm to myself and try to look normal as possible.

But today the 2nd verse stood out in blinking lights.

"He lets me rest in green meadows; he leads me beside peaceful streams. He renews my strength..." Psalm 23:2-3

God is very personal. I need just that, a renewing of strength that only God can provide. As though He wanted to make a point that my concerns are heard, I soon scrolled through my email and found that a friend had shared a Bible verse with me from her YouVersion Bible app.

It was a moment of simultaneous belief and nonbelief that here was the first verse of Psalm 23.

No trumpets sounded or the ground beneath rumbled, but God gently affirmed that He knows and hears me. It is okay to rest (whether mental, emotional, physical). Thanks J. for sharing part of Psalm 23 with me!! It was more than a coincidence.

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Strength is not something even the strongest have in unlimited abundance; it’s not humanly possible although my skewed perception tells me it is for some people. Some days you need rest to renew; also, I don’t need to have Hulk-like strength to feel productive and enough.

Thanks for reading my God-meeting-me-where-I-am story today! I hope everyone has a wonderful evening and you find some moments to rest and renew yourself.

Travel With Me #3: Henry Cowell Redwoods State Park

Visiting this redwoods state park was a memorable nature experience for our family. The towering trees are all different in sizes and idiosyncratic features. The tallest tree at this part is around 1500 years old; these trees have experienced history over the years. It was a time machine back into history.

During our 2020 wildfires in the bay area, this park was threatened by the fires, about 2 acres damaged. I thought this park was more heavily damaged, but it was Big Basin Redwoods State Park, 30 minutes father north from Henry Cowell State Park, that had more extensive damage from the fires. Their historic buildings burned down and redwood trees scorched or badly harmed by the flames.

Hopefully, the redwood trees will regrow with more strength and resilience over the years!

Thanks Yvette for inviting me to this challenge! It’s a pleasure to share my travel photos and to reminisce. Hope everyone is doing well and staying healthy!

Flower of the day: April 10, 2021. Pink & white Azalea

“A flower does not use words to announce its arrival to the world; it justs blooms.”– Matshouna Dhliwayo

These flowers remind me of sweet bubble gum and summer afternoons. I haven’t seen these flowers on our common grounds before…must be a new addition or random seed. Whichever its source, they’re lovely.

Thanks Cee for hosting the FOTD challenge to share nature’s beauty with others!

Thank you readers for visiting and wishing you all a pleasant and healthy weekend.