It’s sweltering hot in northern CA and has been for a few weeks. Since the weather is uncomfortably warm, our most discussed topic is the effect of heat on our bodies and guesses on when this heat streak will end. We love summer months for the longer days, but this is too hot.
If you are in a heat wave like we are, I hope you are well and stay hydrated, preferably with the a/c on. Please take care!
As I was about to press publish on just talking about the weather, I realized that I was ignoring a lingering fear in my heart and that I was writing lighthearted even though my heart feels panged. I didn’t realize that a deep fearful emotion could actually feel physically heavy on the heart and knees can get weak and shaky. In these moments I’m am peace when I firmly cling to the voice of Jesus who asked me in my deepest fear at the hospital bed with Ellis 2 weeks ago, “Do you trust me?”
I do very much: wholeheartedly, yet timidly. However, trusting in a situation of just waiting for symptoms to show and taking prompt action, and not knowing when those symptoms will appear and discerning them, tests the fiber of my being when a fear suddenly catches me off guard. I see Ellis and I am grateful for the health she has now and the belief that we will keep her healthy for many many years to come.
A new visit to the advanced cardiac heart center last week has set off panic in my heart. A nurse from the team encouraged me that I was doing a good job taking care of her. I usually shrug off those comments as just a common thing they must say to parents, but this time I’ll take it. My heart feels vulnerable but I still got to keep my spirits up for my family!
12 responses to “This CA heat and me processing emotions after the heart clinic”
You must remember that you cannot do it in your own strength. The battle is the Lord’s. Rest in His love.
So true, Steven! These are times when my faith is tested and resting on God’s promises. The battle is the Lord’s and I just need to show up and let Him fight for us. Hope you are well!
Yes,Trust in God! Nice smile on Elliot pic of cardiac therapy clinic.that time you’ll took it. Your heart feels vulnerable but you still get to keep you spirits up for your family.
We love summer months for the longer days, but here’s still raining day & night too cold!
How there’s weather 🌡️?
Tack Care,, Eshter!
Oh dear, rainy days and cold nights for you!! I hope the weather improves.
Thank you, Raj! I’m always grateful that you comment and visit and pray for us. I have such a great blogging community,
Yes,dear my nights are cold. I like 🥶! Most welcome, my dear friend! Really iam so happy to you kindness reply 😌! Yes, we have had such a great communication!
Tack Care you & kids!
My heart goes out to you, Esther.
Thank you, Liz! It was a tough Sunday and our whole house was quiet, which is unusual. Gave her 3 migraine meds last night just to prevent a new episode. That seemed to have worked. Today she is better and ate her meals. Breathing a sigh of relief!!
You’re welcome, Esther! What a relief to have headed off a health crisis.
So glad and relieved! I was ready with the medications…
Just as we are in awe of you, I am sure the nursing staff and doctors are in awe of your dedication to your daughter, staying night and day beside Ellis so that when she wakes up from sleeping, or just a nap, your face is the first one she sees. That is comforting for her and worth the lack of sleep during those hospital stays.
Linda, thank you for your really kind words!!! That makes my heart leap with gratitude…sometimes it feels like no one notices and really that shouldn’t matter, but a nod or appreciation really helps the soul! Ellis always thanks me for taking care of her…i feel ambivalent about it because of course it’s my job to caretake and I would do it no matter what but I do appreciate her thoughtfulness.
You are welcome Esther. I feel that Ellis is comforted that you are always there for her … your presence when she wakes up at the hospital or is feeling so poorly is like a security blanket. It goes beyond mere caretaking and devotion. [I’m sorry I’m behind here at WP. I’ve had issues with my internet, storms and honestly was running around on errands Tuesday in the heat and was just worn out and went to bed. I don’t know how you guys are dealing with the perpetual heat there.]