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Mid week blues and pain

Weather is gorgeous today. I wish my mood could reflect this sunny, mild day. I got a mouth sore a few days ago and the stinging pain feels like pins in my mouth. OTC medicine hasn’t helped much either. Wasn’t it like 2 weeks ago I had the undereye twitch?!

My body responds to fatigue like this. I’ve been on overdrive, feeling restless, and trying to keep kids entertained with activities. And no babysitter help to occupy the kids.

A couple of messy activities, gardening and cooking, wiped me out. Peat soil that got too soggy for herb seeds. This is what happens each time we undertake a project: 2 eager kids touching this and that, instructions out the door, and getting things all mixed up.

Before the mess

Soggy soil on the living room floor that I ended up blow drying to make it fluffier.

Attempting Korean rice cake dough with crushed red beans. Disaster. Clean floors afterwards but the dough debris all over the stove and counter.

And today a few flies flew into the house after we watered our seedling peas and onions outside. You would think it’s a wild animal that scampered into the house.

Screaming every time it flew by them. This is so childish of me, but I holed up in their play room and told them where to find the fly swatter. Then ,Elliot ran in and asked me if I could catch it with a clear cup so they could observe it. Ummmm, no.

10 minutes later…all the commotion over flies that can’tbe ignored…mommy pest control service and I’m back to the couch.

I need to remember God is in control and that my day is a gift from him. Then I think, what’s the point? I’ve been grouchy all day. What difference does it make now?

D0It doesn’t seem like what I do matters and that’s my problem.

Thanks for listening to my midday woes. Feeling more heard after writing this. Wishing everyone stays well and finds happiness in the daily details.

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Welcome to my blog! My name is Esther and I'm so happy you are here. I'm an avid nature photographer and a daydreaming thinker. My posts revolve around photos of nature's beauty, homeschooling adventures with my 2 kids, sporadic reflections on my child's heart condition, Bible reading reflections, gardening feats, and other mish mash things. Hopefully you'll leave encouraged, pensive, or smiling at the simple things of life. Thank you for stopping by and hope you'll find some interesting posts to read!

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  1. Well you were more productive than me at the other end of the keyboard. You will reap those herbs that you sowed one day and will wear a smile for doing so.


    1. This time around, I’m really hoping and watering diligently to actually consume the herbs. lol. We’ve only done basil before and I let it flower thinking that’s what it was supposed to do. Ack! My parents have a farm full of vegetables and it amazes me to see how they keep all of them alive and thriving. I didn’t inherit the gardening gene. Complete opposites: black thumb here.
      We have high hopes to make guacamole with cilantro and pesto sauce. we shall see! I’ll update. 🙂

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      1. My grandmother could take a “slip” of anyone’s house plant and grow it effortlessly. I cannot keep houseplants – I kill them all. I used to have a nice flower/butterfly garden out back but no longer do after two Polar Vortex events wiped out most of the flowering bushes and plants. Okay – good luck; I’ll keep my eye out for them


      2. I don’t know how some people have that kind of skill. It must come naturally, like an intuitive thing. Flower/ plant whisperers.
        You are not alone in not being able to keep houseplants alive. For me too, I have some weird power to kill them.
        Oh yikes, I forgot reading about the Polar Vortex. Wasn’t there some kind of challenge in walking out with wet hair and it freezing? Or throwing hot water outside to see it freeze immediately? In that harsh condition, it’d be hard to grow flowers.
        We’re seeing some green sprouts…keeping a close eye on them.

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      3. Yes I agree – I cook like like my grandmother … no cooking/baking skills whatsoever and it was a family joke years ago. But yes, she was skilled in starting a healthy plant from a slip. She had a back kitchen which was very sunny and had an old Singer sewing machine with a treadle back there and used it not for sewing but for her plants to be in the window to get all the sun. Her prize was a Christmas cactus – very old, very big and bloomed with such beautiful flowers – my mom and I often wondered what happened to it after she passed away – we could not bring a plant from Canada into the U.S. or would have brought it home.

        I do remember that people were throwing hot water into the air to see it freeze and I think I do remember the frozen hair as well. Yes, it got colder than our normal “zone” and that is why they died. Hope you are successful with your sprouts.


  2. Your son must enjoy helping you. It looked like a lot of fun of what he was doing. A Korean lady in my chorale group used red bean paste to make cake. I don’t know if it’s easier. My daughter has Christmas cactus. One year it had beautiful blooms. I took many photos. Your cooking looks good. I should do more.


  3. He does enjoy helping me! When he’s in a good mood, it’s a great experience. But when he’s not, it gets a bit difficult as he squabbles with his sister.
    Ohhhhh, red bean paste cake sounds good! Have you had dduk before? It’s Korean rice cake with many different shapes and tastes (mildly sweet). Thank you for your comment about my cooking! I try. I go through phases when I enjoy cooking and vice versa. If you haven’t checked out, has great Korean recipes and videos.
    Christmas cactus is a pretty plant. It has an interesting leaf shape and droop.


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